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| My picture while working for TVRI SPORT on the occasion of PON XXI 2024. Taken by cameraman at Sumut Sport Centre, Deliserdang, North Sumatera. |
Since teen-age, I love writing anything, be it poetry or non-fiction. Flashback to the moment I wrote a short story and sent it to the local newspaper agency. I wanted my story to be published in their newspaper.
At that time, when I was in secondary high school, I might be 11 or 12 years old. There was no online newspaper or magazine. I did not have a mobile phone either. It was a long time ago when what I had were books and pens.
I happily sent my story with a DIY envelope I made from used HVS paper. FYI, Do It Yourself (DIY) is my incredible hobby I own up to day. My dad brought me to the newspaper office, and I handed it to the security man. That was unforgettable!
That little girl sent the short story and hoped they would contact her soon, with that glitter in her eyes. She wished anybody would read her story published in the newspaper.
Sadly that little girl never heard from them again.
Since childhood, I want to be the top of everything I do, either in school or in social circles. I want to achieve perfection in anything, that desire is still within me.
Seeking refinements in every progress I made throughout my life. Present duty in an authentic way, owning my perfection along with imperfection.
In reflection, I wondered why would anybody reject my story, was it not great enough? Was I a bad writer? I felt intense insecurity.
It is true that practise makes perfect!
By continuing writing amid challenges, honing skills time by time, proved writing is not a goal, once achieved and done. Nope! It is a passion that fills my heart with devotion. A passion lives within my soul that I would do throughout my life, not for a moment.
"A passion that fills my heart with devotion."
Writing does not only fill my soul, more than that, it is a tool for my soul awakening. For example, poetry and journals are tools to express my rich thoughts in life.
In 2017, I was one of the authors of the poetry anthology titled 'GADIS MANIS' which had been published by Poetry Publisher. Oh that feeling was awesome!
I could not believe it, I forced myself so hard to win any poetry competition, to make the world acknowledge my talent!
I was deeply wronged by that mindset. Why? I will explain in just a moment, hold on!
Later on, I became a journalist where I wrote news and broadcast it on television. That alone proved my incredible writing and story-telling skills. I reached the seat not because of luck alone, but also with huge effort I put into.
Okay, we're going to back to the prior topic now. Why I said I won poetry competition just to acknowledge my talent was totally a wrong mindset.
Actually I do not need any recognition from anybody, whether I am truly exceptional or not.
I have honed myself to the point where my standard was too high to most people.
I honestly deserve where I belong today, that was when I shifted into this extraordinary mindset.
#Journaling as A Tool for Self-expression
Journaling my emotions through writing them down on papers makes me feel truly alive. Journaling creates a space where time flies quickly, I lost in myself.
Therefore it also makes me healthier since I express anything into this creative talent.
I used to ignore this talent due to many distractions in life, such as studying, working, and doing many things in between. I knew I wrote my thoughts down on paper but it was not a serious thing to call it truly a passion.
It becomes a passion since a moment of silence, a solitude, while I shrunk into a deep exploration, seeking life meaning. I found myself out of the cage as a totally new being.
That was the time I found the essence of my nature, my great latent talent. I found my passion for writing through this sacred time.
I restlessly pour down my exploration into papers, call it an epiphany of the soul. Solitude brought me an unbreakable bond with myself, in the end.
Journaling is the time where I connect with my inner self, the divine unconsciousness. Journaling is no longer something I aim to finish, it is something I would return to, again and again.
This is the major wake-up call:
Happy writing!
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